Todays workout was tough..actually so was yesturdays come to think about it, mind you not AS tough as todays! It started yesturday as I was getting through my workout, I just had this sense of...I really dont want to be here. Not sure why this happened..but it was very fraustrating to me.Completely opposite then the last few times I went.
And then today...I walked in..had my tunes on my mp3 playin loud...just trying to get myself motivated after my little caffeine rush and I just again..was like..oh god this is going to be tough. And it was.
I noticed that everything just seemed so long. And my cardio felt felt like it was taking forever to get through and once I got to my weights...well...no other way to describe it... but pure hell. LOL
Its like you are caught inbetween. You really DONT want to be there, thats the bottom line..but at the same time...you know you HAVE to be there. The weight doesnt just come off magically..its takes time and patience and alot of work! I personally allowed myself to gain some weight back, and its my responsibility again to take it off! So it might take a few months..but better now then never right?! But again, I have to say...this time around I have really been taught a lesson for next time. Thats how I am looking at this. I realize now that once you are at your goal..you dont have to eat perfectly all the time...as long as you keep going to the gym!
At this point friends you are going to laugh...but I have played around so much with what I am eating versus exercising..(not lately but in the past month).... that I would be an expert at maintaining at this point while eating some junk too here and there.
If I had to stay at the same weight from here on in...I would NOT have a problem with doing that..lol
Why I didnt realize this before or see this, I dont know.
But its so much easier though to just really give your all at maintaining by keeping up with workouts at least 3-4 times a week... then to not be physically active hense allow yourself to go back up again. To take that weight off..once again..is so hard. Alot of work! Its like a deja vu but in a bad way:)
I did get through it but it took, alot of mental pep talks pretty much. Alot of fraustrating bangs.... at the end of the weight reps...where everyone would turn around and see me just taking a 30 second break in between looking MISERABLE before plowing through the next set of reps.
I get really mad when this happens. Its not all the time..but there are points where you just feel fraustrated and iritable..and you get pissed off because your strength just doesnt feel all that great that day, and you seem weaker than usual..but yet trying with everything in you, with everything you got to push through it regardless..so tough....the only thing positive that I looked forward to was just getting it over and done with so I could get out of there.
See it happens to the best of us. When this happens you can do one of two things...
A- you can get sucked in by your negative thoughts, and just not go that day or in my case i could have just left ...(which can lead to the start of a danger zone cause that would be just too easy..which might get you thinking to do it again) or
B- you can sware...be fraustrated...but get through it knowing that you did it and that you were a trooper about it, so that the next time this happens you will know you have been through it before and this feeling will pass. So I chose B. I just always try and remind myself when this happens..come on Rosy..its like less one hour and a half out of your day..really this is nothing. It sucks on days like this..but come on you have been through worse! Get it over with..and you will be on your way. Thats it. The faster you get through it the faster your out!
Anyways, I am looking forward to my off day tommorow. Just knowing that I dont have to go in. I have been really giving alot on the days that I am there..so its nice for me to look forward to that day off.
Its also nice for my young kids..cause they come along with me everytime. And lately my son has been like..."again" we have to go again...?
So i feel bad cause sometimes I am sure he would rather be home doing other stuff than being watched by some volunteers over at the gym..but its just something I need to get done, and having that service at the gym helps mothers like me alot who just cant afford regular childcare or who have actually no one to watch them while there. My youngest daughter emma actually looks forward to the gyms "playtime" with other kids cause she doesnt go to daycare anymore so this is her "social" time and what a social bug she has turned out to be! I think perhaps the bestest time for them is when leaving..when they do this routine thing of running to the candy/gum machines..they have I think 3 or 4..and everytime they look at me and say can we have one...and i give the same response..let me see if I have any change...25cents a day each..lol
but thats the least they deserve for being good kids and coming with me despite not really wanting to at least in my sons case. If it puts a smile on his face..well then..i dont care.
Anyways, thats my blog for today...i need to start making my lunch cause i am starvinnnnnnnnnnng
we have about 1 week and a few days before they come for taping. I actually cant wait to get it over and done with so I can move on from there and do other things. I think its just the anxiousness of it all..that I dont like the "time" factor when knowing you are waiting for something down the road.. Its almost better it just happens and thats it. Builds too much when waiting.
OK so I am off...take care..have a great week if we dont talk...but I will be back before you know it!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
Rosy personal thoughts..some tips and general updates!
Hi friends. Just got back from my workout at the gym. Thought I was due for a little blogging..some updates to tell you about.
First off I would like to mention that I finally spoke to the producer in Toronto about the upcoming infomercial taping here at my home residence. I wrote to him (I think I mentioned this to you already in a previous post) letting him know that I was really sick..and that I was too weak to go the gym for a few weeks, which in turn set me back so I wouldn't be able to really give him the results that I planned on giving at this time. I also said how i would understand if they wanted to do something more later on with me because of the illness I got and the set back of it all.
Anyways, knowing that the gazelle was on its way..I knew chances are he probably still plans on coming and still wanted to do it, but once he wrote me back, he CONFIRMED that with me.
He basically told me that he and the crew STILL want to come. He also SURPRISED me with some other info. He told me that he and the other producers have been in talks and thought I would have a really good follow up story to offer...and mentioned to me in the email not only are they really wanting to come like planned...but they would like to give me the time needed to get to my peak..and then return AGAIN!!
I was really surprised by this in a way. I really dont think they did this to all the ones that will be taped. I guess they have seen what I CAN accomplish, what I HAVE accomplished and they are really giving me basically the time needed so they can do my story I guess. He really said how they loved my story and dont really want to miss out on working with it.
You know, this email friends..made me feel so much better. I felt like a big load was lifted off of me being that they dont expect me to be perfect right now.
I really thought that this was going to be a one shot deal. And of course I was under alot of pressure because its not like I had much time...and then of course felt really upset that I couldnt give it all I could have in the end.
But knowing now that they are obviously sharing in talks..some of which I may not even know all about(plans seem to change without me knowing i notice)...and with them talking about coming back in the near future...I felt so good about that!
I really didnt want to go on any quick fix diets. I know first hand that those diets CAN work...but once you start introducing regular foods again, not necessarily bad ones..but ones that you did not have and avoided during that short period of time in order to achieve optimal results..in the end...your body gets all screwed up where usually it will gain easily once you change your ways..and it takes some time for your body to adapt once again to the new eating patterns. So I just didnt want to do this.
This new phase I am in...is about BALANCE. Thats the bottom line. Balance in the sense of doing things right. Balancing the right food combinations...and exerise. Balance in having your once a week eat out...and not feeling guilty. I just wanted to do this all right again. And this means properly as well, not in ridiculous ways. Your health is more imporant, as so is your sanity. After I got sick I have to say..if they really chose not to come here..I really wouldnt have cared. It just wasnt worth it to me, and not to mention if that was the case they would have not been the type of people i would have wanted to work with anyways.
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....Now I wanted to talk about the gym. Something I have realized and am happy about it. (its all about learning friends as you go)
I started to do 2 days on/day off....so I will lets say do my cardio/upper body weights one day....and then the next will do cardio/lower body weights and the following day I take off..and keep doing this rotating this way.
And also in the last few workout sessions I have also decided rather than doing 3 sets of all exercises 15 times each....I have now started doing....2 sets at 15 times each but at a higher weight range. Not only does it really cut my time in the actual gym but I noticed friends such a HUGE difference in my output.
Like I am talking big time!!
I have so much more energy...so much more strength its really amazing. I walk out of the gym..and i honestly feel so great! I dont feel worn down...I feel like I built muscle..and just feel really ENERGIZED.
This I think is really important!!
Who wants to leave the gym feeling just beat up. I mean dont get me wrong I really work hard...but these little changes I have made...makes it more duable as well I think to "stick with it".
This is going to be an ongoing lifelong change. So the last thing I or anyone would want to do is to get bored...and get worn out. And if it means every 2 days taking a break day from the gym....so that my energy is back up the next...why not??
I always believed..this is without a trainer talking...that its so important when you are at the gym to give it your all...try not to be sloppy which in turn can cause injury, but focus on doing the exercises right! This is number one. This means concentrated movements when doing weights with proper form. And if this tires you out more and makes you struggle a bit..its OK..at least you are doing it right and you WILL pick up as you go along.
Dont worry so much about getting all these reps in..and being dissappointed that in the end you cant do it, yet you still are forcing yourself and you get all "sloppy" because of this. Its not worth it friends. Work hard..do it right! When its time to up the weights, your body will let you know. Things get easier all of a sudden...you yourself will find yourself saying ..you know what..i think I am going to try 10lbs today..or 12 or whatever next weight would be from where your at.:-)
If its too easy...then its time to change. If its too hard...you will not be able to do the full set and will find that it hurts (in NOT a good way)and also your position will not be proper (you will end up doing more swinging than concentrated STRONG movements)
So its important to find the medium. And do what works for you BEST.
In my case I have now learnt for me that taking a day off after doing my one day of upper and then the next lower workouts,...helps me alot!!
I go back the day after having the "break" day..and I feel sooooo energetic, so strong. My muscles are ready at that point and can handle to do what they do best..its almost like a power rush!
So thats that. I also would like to say that I believe now finally my muscles are now being awaken and working FOR me. I can tell this now in how my body responds now a days much differently.
I always knew that with all that weight training I did before..your muscles just dont "vanish" when they take time off. They just need to be awaken again thats all. Once they are..they will come back full force and be your main FAT BURNING friend.. They really do carry what it takes to properly burn fat! Remember that. Incorportate weights into your workouts, at the end of the day.....they are so vitally important in fighting the bulge!! Keep in mind as well that when using weights...this really helps to "sculpt" your body than if you just did cardio alone. There is a big misconception regarding weights especially with women.
Example...when i was at my lowest point at the end of my "transformation project" because I was working with weights..I might have been 140lbs or so...but my body fat was at an all time low. I may have had 10% body fat perhaps even less. I looked smaller then what the scale might have read.
Now on the contrary if you take someone who lost weight just like I, with ONLY using some form of cardio, and incorporating a low calorie diet.... in the end they may weigh the exact same as myself...but they would not look even close to as lean or as well sculpted then someone who used weights throughout.
Truth be told yes you may very well be more UP in numbers when weighing yourself..because the muscles of course weigh more..but...you will see a big difference compared to if you didnt use them at all.
But anyways...In the mornings when I take days off from the gym for my cardio...I get up and do my gazelle, making sure to get a workout in there no matter what....and then when I decide to DO my hour cardio at the gym with weight training, its amazing how my body has been in the last little while responding.
For example on the actual bike now I can do level "12" without a problem. Sitting up straight and feeling strong rather than crunched over holding on to the bars and struggling. My rowing has gotten better..faster..and more stronger on the pulls...and the elliptical I am up to level 7 doing intervals of higher to lower which I think help in buring fat. I have actually "dumped" the treadmill all together. LOL
I just found it was just too "hard" running.
I mean I could physically handle it.... BUT...I could feel how its just so hard on the body..probably anyones body (running that is)
Ya you sweat alot..you feel your heart pumping REALLY hard and its probably the toughest kind of cardio you can do...but for me..I just didnt want to chance it.
If i were to get injured...or a body part such as my knee lets say..its really not worth it to me. I would rather do things that are HARD...but not slamming on some moving machine like the treadmill as you run. No thanks. So say goodbye to that machine. Never really liked it myself anyways so no biggy;-)
So all in all feeling GREAT!! Hope these tips of mine help you out a bit. Counting down now. If I count today...in exactly 14 days its time for taping. How am I feeling? Well I suppose a little nervous but to be honest I think I was always pretty good on camera in the sense where I get comfortable pretty easy once the nervousness die's down after a few minutes.
Just like my blogs, I can talk up a storm but in a natural way...lol So I am sure I will be ok. And now that I dont have that added pressure about being "perfect" this time around...I actually feel awsome! I am loving the gym, I am eating healthy...and if anything this is what I am most truely happy about. I am back! Yes I may have gained some weight taking time off..but I'm back. Thats the bottom line and what truely matters in the end friends. You fall off..you get right back on! Don't sweat it and make it in the end destroy you and all you worked for. Take it back!
Now I need shower...Badly.:)
Have a good one talk soon!!
First off I would like to mention that I finally spoke to the producer in Toronto about the upcoming infomercial taping here at my home residence. I wrote to him (I think I mentioned this to you already in a previous post) letting him know that I was really sick..and that I was too weak to go the gym for a few weeks, which in turn set me back so I wouldn't be able to really give him the results that I planned on giving at this time. I also said how i would understand if they wanted to do something more later on with me because of the illness I got and the set back of it all.
Anyways, knowing that the gazelle was on its way..I knew chances are he probably still plans on coming and still wanted to do it, but once he wrote me back, he CONFIRMED that with me.
He basically told me that he and the crew STILL want to come. He also SURPRISED me with some other info. He told me that he and the other producers have been in talks and thought I would have a really good follow up story to offer...and mentioned to me in the email not only are they really wanting to come like planned...but they would like to give me the time needed to get to my peak..and then return AGAIN!!
I was really surprised by this in a way. I really dont think they did this to all the ones that will be taped. I guess they have seen what I CAN accomplish, what I HAVE accomplished and they are really giving me basically the time needed so they can do my story I guess. He really said how they loved my story and dont really want to miss out on working with it.
You know, this email friends..made me feel so much better. I felt like a big load was lifted off of me being that they dont expect me to be perfect right now.
I really thought that this was going to be a one shot deal. And of course I was under alot of pressure because its not like I had much time...and then of course felt really upset that I couldnt give it all I could have in the end.
But knowing now that they are obviously sharing in talks..some of which I may not even know all about(plans seem to change without me knowing i notice)...and with them talking about coming back in the near future...I felt so good about that!
I really didnt want to go on any quick fix diets. I know first hand that those diets CAN work...but once you start introducing regular foods again, not necessarily bad ones..but ones that you did not have and avoided during that short period of time in order to achieve optimal results..in the end...your body gets all screwed up where usually it will gain easily once you change your ways..and it takes some time for your body to adapt once again to the new eating patterns. So I just didnt want to do this.
This new phase I am in...is about BALANCE. Thats the bottom line. Balance in the sense of doing things right. Balancing the right food combinations...and exerise. Balance in having your once a week eat out...and not feeling guilty. I just wanted to do this all right again. And this means properly as well, not in ridiculous ways. Your health is more imporant, as so is your sanity. After I got sick I have to say..if they really chose not to come here..I really wouldnt have cared. It just wasnt worth it to me, and not to mention if that was the case they would have not been the type of people i would have wanted to work with anyways.
-----------------------------------------------
....Now I wanted to talk about the gym. Something I have realized and am happy about it. (its all about learning friends as you go)
I started to do 2 days on/day off....so I will lets say do my cardio/upper body weights one day....and then the next will do cardio/lower body weights and the following day I take off..and keep doing this rotating this way.
And also in the last few workout sessions I have also decided rather than doing 3 sets of all exercises 15 times each....I have now started doing....2 sets at 15 times each but at a higher weight range. Not only does it really cut my time in the actual gym but I noticed friends such a HUGE difference in my output.
Like I am talking big time!!
I have so much more energy...so much more strength its really amazing. I walk out of the gym..and i honestly feel so great! I dont feel worn down...I feel like I built muscle..and just feel really ENERGIZED.
This I think is really important!!
Who wants to leave the gym feeling just beat up. I mean dont get me wrong I really work hard...but these little changes I have made...makes it more duable as well I think to "stick with it".
This is going to be an ongoing lifelong change. So the last thing I or anyone would want to do is to get bored...and get worn out. And if it means every 2 days taking a break day from the gym....so that my energy is back up the next...why not??
I always believed..this is without a trainer talking...that its so important when you are at the gym to give it your all...try not to be sloppy which in turn can cause injury, but focus on doing the exercises right! This is number one. This means concentrated movements when doing weights with proper form. And if this tires you out more and makes you struggle a bit..its OK..at least you are doing it right and you WILL pick up as you go along.
Dont worry so much about getting all these reps in..and being dissappointed that in the end you cant do it, yet you still are forcing yourself and you get all "sloppy" because of this. Its not worth it friends. Work hard..do it right! When its time to up the weights, your body will let you know. Things get easier all of a sudden...you yourself will find yourself saying ..you know what..i think I am going to try 10lbs today..or 12 or whatever next weight would be from where your at.:-)
If its too easy...then its time to change. If its too hard...you will not be able to do the full set and will find that it hurts (in NOT a good way)and also your position will not be proper (you will end up doing more swinging than concentrated STRONG movements)
So its important to find the medium. And do what works for you BEST.
In my case I have now learnt for me that taking a day off after doing my one day of upper and then the next lower workouts,...helps me alot!!
I go back the day after having the "break" day..and I feel sooooo energetic, so strong. My muscles are ready at that point and can handle to do what they do best..its almost like a power rush!
So thats that. I also would like to say that I believe now finally my muscles are now being awaken and working FOR me. I can tell this now in how my body responds now a days much differently.
I always knew that with all that weight training I did before..your muscles just dont "vanish" when they take time off. They just need to be awaken again thats all. Once they are..they will come back full force and be your main FAT BURNING friend.. They really do carry what it takes to properly burn fat! Remember that. Incorportate weights into your workouts, at the end of the day.....they are so vitally important in fighting the bulge!! Keep in mind as well that when using weights...this really helps to "sculpt" your body than if you just did cardio alone. There is a big misconception regarding weights especially with women.
Example...when i was at my lowest point at the end of my "transformation project" because I was working with weights..I might have been 140lbs or so...but my body fat was at an all time low. I may have had 10% body fat perhaps even less. I looked smaller then what the scale might have read.
Now on the contrary if you take someone who lost weight just like I, with ONLY using some form of cardio, and incorporating a low calorie diet.... in the end they may weigh the exact same as myself...but they would not look even close to as lean or as well sculpted then someone who used weights throughout.
Truth be told yes you may very well be more UP in numbers when weighing yourself..because the muscles of course weigh more..but...you will see a big difference compared to if you didnt use them at all.
But anyways...In the mornings when I take days off from the gym for my cardio...I get up and do my gazelle, making sure to get a workout in there no matter what....and then when I decide to DO my hour cardio at the gym with weight training, its amazing how my body has been in the last little while responding.
For example on the actual bike now I can do level "12" without a problem. Sitting up straight and feeling strong rather than crunched over holding on to the bars and struggling. My rowing has gotten better..faster..and more stronger on the pulls...and the elliptical I am up to level 7 doing intervals of higher to lower which I think help in buring fat. I have actually "dumped" the treadmill all together. LOL
I just found it was just too "hard" running.
I mean I could physically handle it.... BUT...I could feel how its just so hard on the body..probably anyones body (running that is)
Ya you sweat alot..you feel your heart pumping REALLY hard and its probably the toughest kind of cardio you can do...but for me..I just didnt want to chance it.
If i were to get injured...or a body part such as my knee lets say..its really not worth it to me. I would rather do things that are HARD...but not slamming on some moving machine like the treadmill as you run. No thanks. So say goodbye to that machine. Never really liked it myself anyways so no biggy;-)
So all in all feeling GREAT!! Hope these tips of mine help you out a bit. Counting down now. If I count today...in exactly 14 days its time for taping. How am I feeling? Well I suppose a little nervous but to be honest I think I was always pretty good on camera in the sense where I get comfortable pretty easy once the nervousness die's down after a few minutes.
Just like my blogs, I can talk up a storm but in a natural way...lol So I am sure I will be ok. And now that I dont have that added pressure about being "perfect" this time around...I actually feel awsome! I am loving the gym, I am eating healthy...and if anything this is what I am most truely happy about. I am back! Yes I may have gained some weight taking time off..but I'm back. Thats the bottom line and what truely matters in the end friends. You fall off..you get right back on! Don't sweat it and make it in the end destroy you and all you worked for. Take it back!
Now I need shower...Badly.:)
Have a good one talk soon!!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
My friends..so supportive...and yet so funny...
One of my friends who happens to be also a coworker of mine sent me this email this morning. Made me laugh. Leave it to Mike. For those who don't know who Mike is, I wrote quite a few stories about him in my book and some of the talks we used to have throughout. He is quite the character and even though there is an age difference between the 2 of us...we just got along so well.
Mike is the cook at work..who I am sure misses me just as much as I miss him! We used to have some really great conversations...and he always made sure to be tough on me..accepting no excuses to take it easy and would never want to hear ANYTHING less than hearing that I am doing it and thats it! LOL
so this is what he wrote to me...what a guy..I miss him so!!
NO EXCUSES !!!! EXCUSES ARE FOR LOSERS !!!
My mantra as per Larry the Cable Guy
“ Git’er Done ”
In the email the "Git'er Done" is HUGE friends...not to mention in BOLD and BLUE colour. He is so funny! Talk about standing out!So I may not be at work right now..but he makes sure to get his points across even if via email!
Its so great when you have people who really care...the support you have from people around you when trying to lose weight or make a change in your life is really crucial. Makes a big difference.
Anyways...thought I would post this one...
Miss ya tons Mikey
Rosy
Mike is the cook at work..who I am sure misses me just as much as I miss him! We used to have some really great conversations...and he always made sure to be tough on me..accepting no excuses to take it easy and would never want to hear ANYTHING less than hearing that I am doing it and thats it! LOL
so this is what he wrote to me...what a guy..I miss him so!!
NO EXCUSES !!!! EXCUSES ARE FOR LOSERS !!!
My mantra as per Larry the Cable Guy
“ Git’er Done ”
In the email the "Git'er Done" is HUGE friends...not to mention in BOLD and BLUE colour. He is so funny! Talk about standing out!So I may not be at work right now..but he makes sure to get his points across even if via email!
Its so great when you have people who really care...the support you have from people around you when trying to lose weight or make a change in your life is really crucial. Makes a big difference.
Anyways...thought I would post this one...
Miss ya tons Mikey
Rosy
Some old videos I found in the archives...
Hey Friends. You will notice on the upper right hand corner of my blog I have posted some old videos the Ottawa Sun had done when they were following my journey. smiles
I thought I would post them especially if you are new to my blog and if had you never seen them before. Even if you have seen them I think its always nice to have a look at them again.
It just shows everyone that it was real what I went through, and that most of us will find ourselves there at one point or another, sometimes even returning again.
I find that they bring out a chuckle in me when reviewing them...because it brings me back to a time where even though it was alot of hard work and I had to carry alot of determination throughout..there WERE also some times when we did have a few good laughs!
Anyways...if you have not seen them I hope they make you smile like they did me..!
Have a great day
Rosy
I thought I would post them especially if you are new to my blog and if had you never seen them before. Even if you have seen them I think its always nice to have a look at them again.
It just shows everyone that it was real what I went through, and that most of us will find ourselves there at one point or another, sometimes even returning again.
I find that they bring out a chuckle in me when reviewing them...because it brings me back to a time where even though it was alot of hard work and I had to carry alot of determination throughout..there WERE also some times when we did have a few good laughs!
Anyways...if you have not seen them I hope they make you smile like they did me..!
Have a great day
Rosy
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Update......
Hey guys! Thought I would take a moment and stop by. I just got back from the gym and I pretty much gave my body a beating.
Today was the first day back for me after being sick for a few weeks. So I woke up this morning, said a quick.."God help me get through this time"...and lets get 'er done!
I actually decided before my workout to give myself that "extra" bit of energy by making me one nice strong black coffee(something I dont usually have).
You know.... to be honest with you all...With me falling ill, I really wanted to bail out of this Tony Little infomercial thing. Even though I was really excited about it in the beginning, me getting sick just kind of put a damper on it all.
I mean that took away 2 good weeks, that could have made a difference on my output.
And even more important than that...it also took away 2 good weeks of where I should have been building up my inner confidence while getting through the toughness of something like that for when the time comes and producers ARE here.
So what I did you might laugh but I had written the producer last week. I filled him in on how i got really sick for 2 weeks..was way too weak to work out...and basically would understand if he wanted to keep me more for later...or if anything else comes up to give me a call. After all he is a good contact to have that I made being in the business of marketing products for different companies.
But, I never did hear back.smiles
However in the back of my mind I guess I was really hoping that he would agree with me. Maybe because deep down I am kind of depressed about not being able to be the best I could have been. And really I can be quite the perfectionist concerning these sort of issues.
Workout and diet are two of those things that can really get to me if something throws me off course unexpectedly. If I start off real good..and screw up...then it really takes alot for me to look past that..and to leave it behind.
For example if I start a certain eating plan Monday morning..and lets say by mid afternoon or even a few days later something happened where I ended up eating something I should not have had...it REALLY can throw me off mentally. Makes me want to screw up my whole day/week because of it. I have however gotten better regarding this...but its just the mental set back that something like that can do to you.
And exercise is the same thing. I mean I gave such a good week and half of really intense hard workouts and a serious dieting plan... and within 4 days I began to see results...and in the end to get sick...after having your mind set...and being focused..really knocks you down mentally. Its like..."damn"!!Especially when you know "time is ticking"
So this is why I guess part of me was hoping that he would agree with me. But I guess I got my answer yesturday when I had a call from customs...and they told me there was something that arrived for me that weighs about 73lbs...lol
so I said..hm..let me guess..is it a brand new gazelle? And the lady on the phone said..actually yes it is..and it came right from the states directly. So i took a deep breath and said ok thanks. There was some kind of mishap concerning numbers they were trying to figure out..so this is why they called me and had to ask me questions about it I guess.
Anyways, looks like they figured it all out and it should arrive here within the next day or two...so it also looks like I wont be able to get out of it. I guess life for some reason just really wants me to do this. So i have to basically put my negative thoughts about being behind..aside..and just give it my all for the next 2 weeks and the time I "do" have left.
I have decided to eat commpletely pure stuff. Nothing bad at all!! Not even a diet drink. Its all natural...counting of calories..choosin to eat clean and working my body hard. Thats all I can do.
I wish I could have been better...but...I cannot beat myself up over it either. It was something that sadly happened that I could not fix or change.
So dear friends. Looks like its a go. I really hope it all works out. I hope that I really do a good job as far as the next 2 weeks are concerned along with the taping itself. Its going to be a great experience to have the chance to do thats for sure.
Today at the gym, I think that caffeine fix helped me actually alot. My cardio was just amazing surprisingly after the 2 weeks off. Weights were pretty good too. Perhaps these antibiotics I am still on...really opened up my lungs cause I felt actually really really good. ALot of energy..I felt fairly light...and I got through my hour of cardio no problem...weights I decided to do only 2 sets instead of my 3..and just go heavier. As heavy as possible. Only way I can cut some time off the gym.
Todays workout did take me about 2 hours..so you can see why I am a little beat sitting here.
But I plan on making these next two weeks really count...probably the most brutal 2 weeks ever that I have ever had to have myself go through.lol
No matter what...I have one focus..to really do my best. To see nothing but me making it to the end despite my body feeling warn out perhaps at times. To push myself to the max....to sware if I have to..but to give nothing less then my 100%. To mentally look past the physical intensity I am putting my body through, and to just keep it going.
I not only am hoping for some slight improvements that two weeks can give your body with proper diet and exercise...but this is the only way that I will build my inner confidence for when they come. When you discipline yourself like this, and you make it through the storm, you would be amazed at how confident you become. How good you feel inside. Even if you are NOT completely happy on the outside...this confidence takes over cause you always end up coming out stronger as a person.
And it shows. Believe me when I tell you that people around you and in your presence will feel the energy that you give off whether good or bad. If you feel like "crap" inside people know it and can feel it...if you feel "good" it gets passed on to those around you and makes any situation BETTER no matter what little things might not be perfect or if its not exactly what you hoped for. So chin up for me. Let whatever is suppose to happen happen.,
Wish me luck...next two weeks...BRUTAL.. I am hoping to take some pics when they are here...or video,.just so you guys might get to see first hand the "making" of an infomercial. Would be kind of neat to be able to do that,but not sure. It all depends if they allow me to do that or not. If I can I will.
Talk soon friends...
Rosy
Today was the first day back for me after being sick for a few weeks. So I woke up this morning, said a quick.."God help me get through this time"...and lets get 'er done!
I actually decided before my workout to give myself that "extra" bit of energy by making me one nice strong black coffee(something I dont usually have).
You know.... to be honest with you all...With me falling ill, I really wanted to bail out of this Tony Little infomercial thing. Even though I was really excited about it in the beginning, me getting sick just kind of put a damper on it all.
I mean that took away 2 good weeks, that could have made a difference on my output.
And even more important than that...it also took away 2 good weeks of where I should have been building up my inner confidence while getting through the toughness of something like that for when the time comes and producers ARE here.
So what I did you might laugh but I had written the producer last week. I filled him in on how i got really sick for 2 weeks..was way too weak to work out...and basically would understand if he wanted to keep me more for later...or if anything else comes up to give me a call. After all he is a good contact to have that I made being in the business of marketing products for different companies.
But, I never did hear back.smiles
However in the back of my mind I guess I was really hoping that he would agree with me. Maybe because deep down I am kind of depressed about not being able to be the best I could have been. And really I can be quite the perfectionist concerning these sort of issues.
Workout and diet are two of those things that can really get to me if something throws me off course unexpectedly. If I start off real good..and screw up...then it really takes alot for me to look past that..and to leave it behind.
For example if I start a certain eating plan Monday morning..and lets say by mid afternoon or even a few days later something happened where I ended up eating something I should not have had...it REALLY can throw me off mentally. Makes me want to screw up my whole day/week because of it. I have however gotten better regarding this...but its just the mental set back that something like that can do to you.
And exercise is the same thing. I mean I gave such a good week and half of really intense hard workouts and a serious dieting plan... and within 4 days I began to see results...and in the end to get sick...after having your mind set...and being focused..really knocks you down mentally. Its like..."damn"!!Especially when you know "time is ticking"
So this is why I guess part of me was hoping that he would agree with me. But I guess I got my answer yesturday when I had a call from customs...and they told me there was something that arrived for me that weighs about 73lbs...lol
so I said..hm..let me guess..is it a brand new gazelle? And the lady on the phone said..actually yes it is..and it came right from the states directly. So i took a deep breath and said ok thanks. There was some kind of mishap concerning numbers they were trying to figure out..so this is why they called me and had to ask me questions about it I guess.
Anyways, looks like they figured it all out and it should arrive here within the next day or two...so it also looks like I wont be able to get out of it. I guess life for some reason just really wants me to do this. So i have to basically put my negative thoughts about being behind..aside..and just give it my all for the next 2 weeks and the time I "do" have left.
I have decided to eat commpletely pure stuff. Nothing bad at all!! Not even a diet drink. Its all natural...counting of calories..choosin to eat clean and working my body hard. Thats all I can do.
I wish I could have been better...but...I cannot beat myself up over it either. It was something that sadly happened that I could not fix or change.
So dear friends. Looks like its a go. I really hope it all works out. I hope that I really do a good job as far as the next 2 weeks are concerned along with the taping itself. Its going to be a great experience to have the chance to do thats for sure.
Today at the gym, I think that caffeine fix helped me actually alot. My cardio was just amazing surprisingly after the 2 weeks off. Weights were pretty good too. Perhaps these antibiotics I am still on...really opened up my lungs cause I felt actually really really good. ALot of energy..I felt fairly light...and I got through my hour of cardio no problem...weights I decided to do only 2 sets instead of my 3..and just go heavier. As heavy as possible. Only way I can cut some time off the gym.
Todays workout did take me about 2 hours..so you can see why I am a little beat sitting here.
But I plan on making these next two weeks really count...probably the most brutal 2 weeks ever that I have ever had to have myself go through.lol
No matter what...I have one focus..to really do my best. To see nothing but me making it to the end despite my body feeling warn out perhaps at times. To push myself to the max....to sware if I have to..but to give nothing less then my 100%. To mentally look past the physical intensity I am putting my body through, and to just keep it going.
I not only am hoping for some slight improvements that two weeks can give your body with proper diet and exercise...but this is the only way that I will build my inner confidence for when they come. When you discipline yourself like this, and you make it through the storm, you would be amazed at how confident you become. How good you feel inside. Even if you are NOT completely happy on the outside...this confidence takes over cause you always end up coming out stronger as a person.
And it shows. Believe me when I tell you that people around you and in your presence will feel the energy that you give off whether good or bad. If you feel like "crap" inside people know it and can feel it...if you feel "good" it gets passed on to those around you and makes any situation BETTER no matter what little things might not be perfect or if its not exactly what you hoped for. So chin up for me. Let whatever is suppose to happen happen.,
Wish me luck...next two weeks...BRUTAL.. I am hoping to take some pics when they are here...or video,.just so you guys might get to see first hand the "making" of an infomercial. Would be kind of neat to be able to do that,but not sure. It all depends if they allow me to do that or not. If I can I will.
Talk soon friends...
Rosy
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Wow didnt realize I have been sick for pretty much 2 weeks...
Hey friends. I just thought I would inform you that I am ....FINALLY feeling better. Its been 3 days now since I stubbornly decided to go and fill that antibiotics presription. And although i am pretty sure that my body WAS getting better anyways...it just gave it that extra shove.
So now other than that odd cough that still lingers...other symptoms are pretty much gone.
I went back you know in my blog to see when i first got sick. And to my surprise I have one blog dated October 20th..that says LAST week I caught something...so I am pretty sure I must have been sick for a good 2 weeks!! Thats insane,
well all i can say is that I hope this will be it for a while. I think I have all the antiboties in my body now that will probably be able to fight off any unwanted enemies in the next little while...;-)
who says "I" need a flu shot. I am pretty sure I got the flu first hand. smiles
well thats it for now...Tommorow I am back at the gym, and will be ready and looking forward to leaving this sickness behind and moving ahead!
.....Happy dance time.....:-)))))
So now other than that odd cough that still lingers...other symptoms are pretty much gone.
I went back you know in my blog to see when i first got sick. And to my surprise I have one blog dated October 20th..that says LAST week I caught something...so I am pretty sure I must have been sick for a good 2 weeks!! Thats insane,
well all i can say is that I hope this will be it for a while. I think I have all the antiboties in my body now that will probably be able to fight off any unwanted enemies in the next little while...;-)
who says "I" need a flu shot. I am pretty sure I got the flu first hand. smiles
well thats it for now...Tommorow I am back at the gym, and will be ready and looking forward to leaving this sickness behind and moving ahead!
.....Happy dance time.....:-)))))
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Rosy decided to make that visit to the clinic that she didnt really WANT to make....
Thats right. So tonight I decided to gather up my 3 young kids and head off to the closest "clinic"
what changed my mind?? well, I was talking to a friend of mine, and I was telling him tonight how I seemed like I was feeling better this morning, and then later on this afternoon this sudden feeling of nausea came upon me. So I was telling him throughout the afternoon this would come and go. Which somewhat made me wonder because I woke up this morning feeling pretty good in general..other than the odd cough etc.
So he suggested..why dont you just go. OK..your right. Let me go. At least for my kids sake so I can be told what I have and that would make it easier so I am not so perinoid about giving whatever to them.
So off we went. We got there, and it was about 6:30p.m, I believe. The clinic even though it shuts around 8 p.m. were not even going to take me at first. Because they had "so many patients already". Looking around I would have guessed maybe 8 if that..but ok.
But then I guess for whatever reason decided to squeeze me in as one of their last ones. Yippee for me.
So being that I did not get seen until roughly 7:30..my kids were basically all over the place. Playing hide and go seek.banging everything in the playroom.... I had to wear a mask cause i do still have the "odd" cough which if you do you need to wear one.
Anyways, so we finally get in the room...DOC comes in. Nice guy, Older one. So he asks me whats going on? I respond by telling him that I have had this sickness going on for more than a week now...which started off which seemed to be just a bad cough but after the first few days turned into a fever which carried on for quite a few days, ...so I had a fever/coughing..been really tired, body pretty achy ..and now just recently today seem to be getting this nausiating feeling all of a sudden..not sure why. And thats basically the story.
And then i went on to tell him..I am here not because I really wanted to come, but because of my kids (who were all 3 there in the room with me)so he could see they were obviously young and that I was just a concerned mother.
SO he said to me..
well it sounds like you have the symptoms of the H1N1.
OK I said...
but what i have also sounds like a normal bug as well doesnt it??.
True he said.
So I asked...well is there anyway you can find out exactly what I have? Not really.
Not really???
So how do you know then?? He replied...well from the symptoms...
but I dont get it? So you are saying you would only know from the symptoms..but yet the symptoms are almost the same as any other flu correct? Yes he responded. Then he began to say to me that its not like we have a machine that tells us or anything..
In my mind I was thinking....this is it??? No swab?? nothing???
I mean this shit is all over the news...and its like ...no big deal?? no further tests to be done??? What about ME...the concerned MOTHER..for her kids...where its the kids that apparently can suffer the most with this so called H1N1 and he has no further comments for me?
Anyways..he did listen to my chest and asked me to breath in and out..you know the routine..which i did. There was some weezing...which keep in mind has gotten alot better now its not even half as bad as it was..I did have alot of mucous in there at one point and still have a little I am sure..so what do you expect...(sorry friends)
so he decided to tell me that he "believes" i have bronchitis.
BRONCHITIS?? I proceeded to tell him that I am actually maybe 90% better then what I was. And how i really truely think people with bronchitis would sound a hell of alot worse than me. Not necessarily he replied.
Ok ..so he gives me this perscription...here you go...thank you ..have a good night.,
That was my visit. I will not fill that perscription unless my cough gets worse because personally I dont "believe" i have bronchitis but rather just coming off of having a bad cold. If it gets worse I will fill it..but I was so damn dissappointed in how he handled my concern about this so called H1N1 flu thing that that everyone is talking about and that all most people are panicking about as well.
I mean every talk show is talking about it...the doctors are talking about it..radio is talking about..its all over the place..and yet it was like no big deal tonight. He sent me away...without any testing at all....so basically someone like me has no idea what kind of flu it is..just that I do have something...and if i were to colapse here..oh well I guess... right?
Oh,,he did say though what i knew he would..to take it easy..only do things I have to ....drink lots of hot drinks..and soups..take your tylenol for fever and whatever.
Sure
thanks.
I didnt even go to Med school and i knew that already.
So there you go. Point proven. I went cause of my kids, and really had no answer to go back home with. I waited long enough to just be given a perscription for broncitis which I dont even believe I have. And basically went home with hungry kids thinking I could have been lying on my couch all nice and comfy at this time then sitting in a room with a whole bunch of other sick people while we were all wearing these masks that were freaking out my daughter Emma. i would be really curious to what they left the clinic being told. LOL Most probably same thing as me. Get lots of rest!!! :-)
Alrighty then.
SO just thought I would blog about my visit to the clinic tonight and how what I had assumed would happen did. No real answers... a long enough wait time to be told nothing at all about the flu...just here say. And its funny how I mentioned about feeling nausiated..and he didnt even question that at all. LOL
Didnt realize that bronchitis would cause nausea as well. hm. Oh well.
Have a great night.
Now I am making a damn cup of cocoa! screw the tea!! CAnnot wait till all this passes so I can go back to my gym again! Got alot of fraustrations that I need to let out...no better way then that
lol
Talk soon
Rosy
what changed my mind?? well, I was talking to a friend of mine, and I was telling him tonight how I seemed like I was feeling better this morning, and then later on this afternoon this sudden feeling of nausea came upon me. So I was telling him throughout the afternoon this would come and go. Which somewhat made me wonder because I woke up this morning feeling pretty good in general..other than the odd cough etc.
So he suggested..why dont you just go. OK..your right. Let me go. At least for my kids sake so I can be told what I have and that would make it easier so I am not so perinoid about giving whatever to them.
So off we went. We got there, and it was about 6:30p.m, I believe. The clinic even though it shuts around 8 p.m. were not even going to take me at first. Because they had "so many patients already". Looking around I would have guessed maybe 8 if that..but ok.
But then I guess for whatever reason decided to squeeze me in as one of their last ones. Yippee for me.
So being that I did not get seen until roughly 7:30..my kids were basically all over the place. Playing hide and go seek.banging everything in the playroom.... I had to wear a mask cause i do still have the "odd" cough which if you do you need to wear one.
Anyways, so we finally get in the room...DOC comes in. Nice guy, Older one. So he asks me whats going on? I respond by telling him that I have had this sickness going on for more than a week now...which started off which seemed to be just a bad cough but after the first few days turned into a fever which carried on for quite a few days, ...so I had a fever/coughing..been really tired, body pretty achy ..and now just recently today seem to be getting this nausiating feeling all of a sudden..not sure why. And thats basically the story.
And then i went on to tell him..I am here not because I really wanted to come, but because of my kids (who were all 3 there in the room with me)so he could see they were obviously young and that I was just a concerned mother.
SO he said to me..
well it sounds like you have the symptoms of the H1N1.
OK I said...
but what i have also sounds like a normal bug as well doesnt it??.
True he said.
So I asked...well is there anyway you can find out exactly what I have? Not really.
Not really???
So how do you know then?? He replied...well from the symptoms...
but I dont get it? So you are saying you would only know from the symptoms..but yet the symptoms are almost the same as any other flu correct? Yes he responded. Then he began to say to me that its not like we have a machine that tells us or anything..
In my mind I was thinking....this is it??? No swab?? nothing???
I mean this shit is all over the news...and its like ...no big deal?? no further tests to be done??? What about ME...the concerned MOTHER..for her kids...where its the kids that apparently can suffer the most with this so called H1N1 and he has no further comments for me?
Anyways..he did listen to my chest and asked me to breath in and out..you know the routine..which i did. There was some weezing...which keep in mind has gotten alot better now its not even half as bad as it was..I did have alot of mucous in there at one point and still have a little I am sure..so what do you expect...(sorry friends)
so he decided to tell me that he "believes" i have bronchitis.
BRONCHITIS?? I proceeded to tell him that I am actually maybe 90% better then what I was. And how i really truely think people with bronchitis would sound a hell of alot worse than me. Not necessarily he replied.
Ok ..so he gives me this perscription...here you go...thank you ..have a good night.,
That was my visit. I will not fill that perscription unless my cough gets worse because personally I dont "believe" i have bronchitis but rather just coming off of having a bad cold. If it gets worse I will fill it..but I was so damn dissappointed in how he handled my concern about this so called H1N1 flu thing that that everyone is talking about and that all most people are panicking about as well.
I mean every talk show is talking about it...the doctors are talking about it..radio is talking about..its all over the place..and yet it was like no big deal tonight. He sent me away...without any testing at all....so basically someone like me has no idea what kind of flu it is..just that I do have something...and if i were to colapse here..oh well I guess... right?
Oh,,he did say though what i knew he would..to take it easy..only do things I have to ....drink lots of hot drinks..and soups..take your tylenol for fever and whatever.
Sure
thanks.
I didnt even go to Med school and i knew that already.
So there you go. Point proven. I went cause of my kids, and really had no answer to go back home with. I waited long enough to just be given a perscription for broncitis which I dont even believe I have. And basically went home with hungry kids thinking I could have been lying on my couch all nice and comfy at this time then sitting in a room with a whole bunch of other sick people while we were all wearing these masks that were freaking out my daughter Emma. i would be really curious to what they left the clinic being told. LOL Most probably same thing as me. Get lots of rest!!! :-)
Alrighty then.
SO just thought I would blog about my visit to the clinic tonight and how what I had assumed would happen did. No real answers... a long enough wait time to be told nothing at all about the flu...just here say. And its funny how I mentioned about feeling nausiated..and he didnt even question that at all. LOL
Didnt realize that bronchitis would cause nausea as well. hm. Oh well.
Have a great night.
Now I am making a damn cup of cocoa! screw the tea!! CAnnot wait till all this passes so I can go back to my gym again! Got alot of fraustrations that I need to let out...no better way then that
lol
Talk soon
Rosy
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