Monday January 28th, 2008 DO YOURSELF GOOD, GET YOURSELF A TRAINER!!

Hi everyone. So its another Monday and I got through another week..and starting a new one. There is always something nice about starting on a Monday, because we can basically make the new week whatever we like to make it. Which is really nice when you think about it.

So I weighed myself today...227lbs...so I am now in my 220's...which I am so excited about! I mean to think, I went from 272lbs..to today's weigh in. Isn't that insane.!!Not to mention in under 3 months really!

I am so excited now that I am on the countdown to get into the 100's once again, and the way things have been going, I know that wont be too much longer.

I have decided that I am going to go downtown when i reach 199lbs, and make sure to go when there is major traffic during rush hour and strip off my clothes...and dance around!!:-)))) cause i will be sooooo happy!! :)))))

Well, OK perhaps not do that, but ... I know that it will be so nice to see the 100's again! I am sure I will cry, and perhaps sit in shock for a while, maybe even weigh myself 100 times that day to make sure I wont be dreaming it, all I know is that it is going to be an amazing day, when that day arrives.

Anyways, I just wanted to mention quickly that, Honestly, i could not have done this without my trainer. I know this for a fact. I would have quit a long time ago. This is why I would like to urge all those reading my blog, it is so WORTH it to invest in a really good trainer! I mean this is YOUR life we are talking about! There is nothing more important than investing in your own life, something that will make you live longer, not to mention feel so much better about yourselves!.

You see, especially if you are starting off high in weight...and perhaps its been a long time that you have tried to lose weight, its almost like going back to school again, just getting educated again and learning all the proper things you need to know regarding food and exercise, not to mention it has made such a difference to have the support I have had from my own trainer.

Because this is something that you will take with you, and can use forever as you make a lifestyle change. This is real, it is hard work, but, I have learnt so much already!! And it can really be done properly. Without having an operation, without one of those fad diets where, they are making billions of dollars off of people who get sucked into them, this is real, natural, eating all the proper foods that god gave us to live on, there is nothing that sounds better than that! I just wish I would have done this a longggggggg time ago!! SO, just keep that in mind. Coming from another overweight person, I really do think that is a big key in tackling this problem, having the support from a trainer! If you cant afford one a few times a week, perhaps you can once a week, and if not once a week, perhaps once every 3 weeks or once a month, just get yourself one you feel comfortable with! And do what they tell you, and be up for the challenge! Don't get weak and quit...give it time..and you too will see a big difference. Be stronger about it this time!

I have my confidence back again...I smile alot more, I am starting to take care of myself alot more now in regards to making myself pretty again. When you are in the spot where I used to be when i first started, I could care less about what i was wearing, or that I fixed my hair or makeup..because you are just sort of in a hole, and you don't really feel pretty. But now that I have been changing both mentally and physically, you start getting that all back again.

I went shopping the other day and bought 2 pairs of pants, I mean pants, not joggers..:) OH AND FORGOET TO TELL YOU ALL...I am down like 6 sizes in pants..that is ridiculous@ but fantastic!!
And i went to a party on Friday night. Everyone first of all was shocked at how I looked, and then they were shocked that I was actually wearing real pants.lol It was somewhat funny actually.:-)

anyways, have a great week. I am looking forward to a fantastic workout today, I have a concert to go to on Friday, and I plan on getting as many calories burned by then...(its more a mental think i know) but anything that helps me have a good workout week, I welcome;-)

take care talk soon
C.W.H.T.I

Monday January 21st, 2008....AND 40LBS LESS ...yeeeeeaaaaaah! In just 10weeks and one day!

Hi everyone. Just a quick blog before getting my "you know what" to the gym. Today I am feeling a little bit edgy. Don't really want to go to the gym this morning, but i know i have to. I guess once being home and having time away from the gym on the weekends..I find Mondays always fun to go back(not). But once i get there I know i will be OK.

So my weight today showed 232lbs so i have dropped another 3lbs since last Monday..pretty good given the fact that I have now been on this transformation for over 2 months and the weight dropping is pretty steady.

I am predicting that by March sometime I should finally see the 100's./god that is going to feel great...i haven't seen that number in so many years, that honestly I cant even really remember when.Once I get to 199lbs...its party time folks..extra veggies for me:)

I suppose when i was about 17ish i went down to about 170-180lbs but that was the lowest. And any diets i did after that..the absolute lowest was 205..and to think I am almost there.

SO, I tell you its going to be interesting. Not sure how i will be at a normal weight. I cant even look that far ahead. I guess being overweight for so long will probably just no matter what be part of my life(emotionally). I will always still sometimes see myself as that same person.

But its great that I have now passed the points of other diets that I have done in the last few years...and once i get to that 205lbs mark..which is not that far away...i will know OK...got through that..next 180lbs....its almost as if i have marks that I am passing of my own past life. And you tend to remember a time when you were at a certain weight...and what was happening in your life.
I was 180lbs when i started dating my first boyfriend, then i was 225lbs when i was in my last year of high school..so i went up..then when my brother got married 10 years ago..i was able to get down to 205lbs by working out myself and watching what i ate..then i don't know what happened...back up up up the scale again and reached 272lbs where I started this whole thing.
But I am never going to go back up again..all this hard work..and dedication, and not to mention all the wonderful things i am learning from my trainer that he is teaching me. Later on I will now know what I should or shouldn't do. And I will never let myself go like I did in the past.
I have my kids now, that's done with..there is no reason to really gain weight...at least not to a high degree..i am sure i will fluctuate from time to time..around 10lbs and I am OK with that..but I think I will be more in control of what I put into my body this time around. And I will be the first to admit that I plan on having probably the "once a week" pig out..but during the week..I will make sure to just make the most healthiest choices ever. That's all.. I mean i am only normal( not to mention Italian!!)..i still need that once a week..to go eat whatever!! LOL

Well that's about it...this blog has actually got longer than I was planning ..maybe just jabbering trying to waste time to not get to that gym..so I better go right now!
But I just realized all together I have now lost 40lbs.....!!!! In just over 2 months..isn't that awesome...!! Wow..cant believe it! I am so proud of myself...showing all of you that we can do this...see...just with patience..and hard work and dedication anything can be done!! We do have a choice people...
OK now i really have to go!!!!


Anyways talk soon...keep strong people with me..shoot out some good Karma towards me here, and any energy to give me strength..god knows i will need it this morning pumping those weights!!
gotta go..
C.W.H.T.I

THE UNDERDOG WILL DESTROY!!

Hey everyone. Thought I would write a quick blog today for us all. This morning I went to do my cardio...and wow...I had so much energy...and the weight training I believe has helped me in that aspect..getting me more stronger as the days go on:-)

I used the elliptical again..one of my fav's and i decided to up the intensity and do my body some good by doing one minute..fast..and the next super super fast using my arms as well..as if i am running on it! It helps that they are located right next to the treadmills so that way i do the pace of the others that are running..so the pace i hear as their feet are slamming down..I did that in the past, but more near the end of my workout..but this time around i did it throughout, and it felt good that i could keep up... and you know another interesting fact..how i notice my heart... how it goes back to slowing down so much faster now...! Its GREAT!!

Also, i have decided to put this water theory to the test this month until my next pic.Because when i first posted my before pic, the next pic I found was like wow....the pic that i just posted was ok..but i thought it would be better. And the only thing that was different about this last pic was that i wasn't drinking as much water water...so I want to see if my next pic will be kick butt next time around like the second...so i decided to do like i did when i started, drinking 4 litres of water per day for the whole month. Just to see ..out of curiosity if this water thing really works. so that is what i have been doing and will continue doing so, till my next pic Feb 11th.

Also another thing, there is this girl in the gym that I have mentioned to my trainer how i just love her body. It is so kick.. I mean its lean...and she has muscles but she doesn't seem really friendly..
so i decided to look at her as if I am going to destroy her now:)
so by this time next year..we will be going to the same gym..and my body is going to kick hers right out of town..that's right! The underdog will stop at nothing and destroy!
:-)

On that note...it felt good for people to be staring at me today doing my thing...it just reminded me that wow..i must be looking so much more stronger with the energy I have to burn now.

Well that's about all for today...till next time...keep working...stay strong...lets defeat together!!

C.W.H.T.I

RUB A DUB DUB IN THE TUB!! January 14, 2008

Hey everyone! Hope that everyone had an awesome weekend!

Things have been going fairly well for me lately. I have started to drop again. My weight right now is 235lbs and I am so happy about that. 5 more pounds and I will have lost 40lbs...and that is in just a short few months really. Hard work and proper eating habits, have helped me win this battle!

But something even bigger that put a smile on my face this morning...another little reason why it is important for overweight people/obese people to lose weight, another little thing that we all tend to miss out on without really realizing it....to have a bath again!

This morning I decided to have a quick bath to freshen up, and you know what...i fit so nicely in that bathtub again! ha ha.I know it sounds silly..but this is life of an overweight/obese person...very hard to fit in a normal bathtub and its not at all comfortable. But when I sat in it this morning, I just couldn't help admiring my legs. Even though there is still alot of work to be done with them, they are looking so much better, smaller and leaner than what they once were. It was fantastic and I thought to myself..i can get used to this ..!:-) I was much more relaxed sitting there..and I just had to take a few more minutes just to really enjoy that moment again. The feeling that, wow.. I am not squished in here anymore...

Well, i suppose in the next little while..I will be shopping at alot of bath stores to purchase alot of bubble bath stuff...ha ha something i have not done in years..i forgot what its like to actually just relax in a bath..not to mention fit comfortably in one!

So again...there are so many little things that we miss out on in life sometimes not even realizing it, and its almost like the freedom others carry...we just don't have. And when you get to have it back..it feels so good.!

As a result, when you start feeling the freedom again... you start feeling in control again of your own life, rather than not having control at all.. just doing whatever you CAN DO..and just shrugging off and accepting what you can't. WELL NO MORE OF THAT FOR MORE ME!!! And YOU ALL should think about those kinds of things and decide whether or not you are going to just let life just pass you by, and accept being overweight..and have your freedom taken away..or take charge and stand up for yourself, take blame and change because in the end..it is you that must make that choice no one else! And its the best decision you will ever make. We are all stronger than what we give each other credit for. I am an example of that!

When i started this transformation..i wanted to take back my life..and just this morning ...I once again realized, that is exactly what I AM DOING!! And I am so excited to enjoy these little things again because you know what...I DESERVE IT TOO!!
have a good one..need to run to the gym now...talk soon...
C.W.H.T.I

Video is on the suns website if you wish to check it out!

If you all want to go to the link on the side that says the Ottawa sun...once there if you go under videos on the right hand side..you will see a video with me and rob....its quite funny..i was laughing alot.during it .so ..i wasn't as serious as i should have been..but it was cool! check it out!

Direct Link to Video

C.W.H.T.I
xo

My 2 MONTH anniversary pics to compare!!

Ok, so I chose to just put up these ones instead of all 4 to save me time. One is from November 11th, 2007 (the exact day I began this transformation project) and the other one is todays..January 11th 2008(exactly 2 months later)But I think you all get the drift. In just about 8 weeks I have already began to transform with remarkable changes. JUST 8 WEEKS!! So as you can see...with the proper workouts combined with the RIGHT foods..does the body good!! I am 34 pounds lighter..and feelin' fantastic!!!!

Talk soon

C.W.H.T.I

A NIGHT TO REMEMBER!!

So here I am just finished supper, got the kids in bed.. Tonight I was at the gym, doing our video taping for the suns newspaper website...

I tell you..it was quite the experience ...I never laughed so hard in my life! And it was a nice change given the fact I have been more on the serious side since starting this body transformation project. After all, I have to be serious, to stay focused..but tonight..the old me came out. I guess that side of me is always there actually...but it just felt sooo great to let loose for a change, not to mention I had a ball practising on my drama skills, that were and STILL are pretty crappy:-) No wonder I failed drama in high school!
hehe..Then again, maybe that was cause I skipped all the time...hm..not sure...anyways. I don't think it's in the cards for me to become an actress after tonight..hehe...its actually HARD being serious in front of a camera when you are a person like myself:)


People who know me..know that most of the time you will catch me smiling...or laughing..one of the two...i love to laugh...its just me..and its just my personality, so trying to put me in front of a camera and being serious at that, is like..good luck..but we finally did it after so many takes:)

But all in all it was an incredible experience to go through, having me trainer right by my side, however it was a little difficult sometimes, (but in a good way)trying to get things right...us having to re due it over and over cause I would just laugh... just hearing my trainer talking and being serious into the camera about the exercise I was doing, THAT would even make me laugh. So then we BOTH would end up laughing! Good going for me! Every little thing...it was crazy!

I suppose part of that laughing is also due to the fact, that this is STILL somewhat shocking and overwhelming for me. The thought,that,...people might actually be interested in my life, and what I chose to embark on this year. It was an idea I just came up with one morning never thinking it would reach so many people to this extent, nor, so many hearts. But its been fantastic! I really feel like this time around, that with this idea I had, I will not only be helping myself, but I can REALLY reach out and help so many others! And that's the BEST feeling of all! To be a role model I suppose for all those others that may feel lost, just like I first did! I know I have been there!

BUT, I am a person that loves challenges...and loves change...before all this, i was just working as a housekeeper(still am), you know, typical mother of 3 kids, dealt with appointments, and made sure the laundry was kept up, dinner was ready, toys were tidied, dishes were done, basically always did everything for everyone, but my own happiness was left on the back burner..I guess, I started to kind of get bored I suppose with the same routines day in day out! Even though I still do them all...ha. I just added something extra but this is extra is making ME for once feel great!

Don't get me wrong,,,i am SO blessed...with the life that was given to me! I may not have alot of money or a new car, or really expensive clothes, and many other things people wish for, but I do have something, and that is my family..my friends..and myself! And that is more than money can buy! I just NEEDED something different to challenge MY own body and mind..and now, when looking at what I've taken on, I think I have picked the perfect thing for myself...:-)there is nothing right now that i can see myself doing that would be more challenging at this point anyways.
Although being the person I am, it wouldn't surprise me if I think of something else once this project is finished!

It's been a real roller coaster ride..and I am so happy that I get to share it with all with you!! I wish I could reach out to all of you one by one personally ..all those reading my blog..and those who are trying to change like myself, but at least we have this ...to be able share these laughs together, and the stories,..good, bad, happy, or sad. But laughing feels sooo good!Even when you are working your butt off literally!

Anyways, but ..reality is...now that tonight is over..tomorrow it will be back at the gym again in the morning..nothing new..some things don't change.:-) Ready to tackle on another kick butt workout that at the moment when doing feels like its just killing me but yet leaves me feeling unbelievably powerful afterwards! And it always makes me feel like i can conquer anything.

But i just wanted you all to know about my night tonight! And I think everyone should try and do something that is totally not the norm which you are so used to doing...because its just such a thrill to go through a journey like the one i am going through now, because this is so abnormal for me, and to think that i wouldn't have been able to experience all this, if i didn't admit, and look at my problem, face it, and most importantly be open about it. I was so scared in the beginning..afraid of being laughed at..afraid of what if people know me?..what are they going to think?..so many things made me a little nervous about actually coming out..but once i did...it felt fantastic..like a breath of the freshest air! It was something that I have never experienced feeling before!

So you can all catch me on the suns website early next week..i guess under videos..not sure..but check it out I will be there somewhere...the link is on the right hand side on this blog page...

Well..this is it...I hope you ALL realize that tommorow...is....MY 2 MONTH ANNIVERSARY PICSSSSSSS!!!! yesssssss!!!..so when i get up..everyone knows...picture time for me...in the same shorts..and shirt..but...I CANT WAIT!! hehe

So I will try and post them tomorrow morning for us all.
TALK SOOOOOONNNNNNN!
C.W.H.T.I
xo

10% off year membership at FREE FORM FITNESS !!

Hey there friends. After talking to the owner at Free Form Fitness located in kanata, just wanted to mention he is willing to give anyone wishing to start the new year off right with a gym membership, that if you go and see them, and mention this blogspot, and my name he will give you a discount of 10% off the year membership!

Its a really great gym, clean, and they are great trainers if you need that one on one. Something I so needed!! I think its the only thing that has kept me on track! So you should check them out! Hey I go there too :-)

Other than that things are going good. I have had an increase in appetite, I guess because my actual workout has become a little more intense, but I got through it ok. Still going strong.

Tomorrow I am meeting with a reporter to record myself for the Ottawa Sun website..should be interesting..and don't forget this Friday...my 2month anniversary pics...YEAHHH i cant wait for those...check back!! They will be posted like always!! My weight hasn't moved much as far as pounds..but no worries,,plateau's don't scare me anymore because I know I am burning and that's all that counts..and pics really say it all!

Anyways stay positive and strong ....talk soon
C.W.H.T.I

BEWARE of those OFF DAYS that creep up on you!!

So here I am writing to you, and CHOWING down on almonds. Today for some reason is not a good day for me!!

So even though I just wrote something yesterday, I thought i would write a little bit about my day today, because I think its important, for all who are reading my blogs, especially if you have a weight problem, (or not) to understand that these days do COME ALONG every now and again..right when you least expect them too, and you just have to basically tolerate it with the assurance it will pass like anything else. For me these sort of days come and go once in a while..but remember to just be patient..and not give into temptation like we all did in the past. Be stronger than IT, I guess.

So it started off after I had my workout which i found really hard today...i throughout the workout was feeling a little upset/edgy which i usually don't feel, usually totally opposite actually..not sure why..but one thing for sure,my trainer always hears about it!!..:-)laughs

so when i got home, i just nailed him with..
"i think this certain exercise should change"
..."i find this boring"..
"it takes up too much time"
"I don't see any use in this exercise at all"
..just NAILING him with with complaints via email..my poor trainer...I think since we have worked together there has only been 2 days that he has been around to witness when my attitude takes a nose dive,which is today, and about a month ago when something like this happened..same thing attitude change, but he is so sweet like always..so patient and understanding, that in the end i felt kinda silly for taking out my own negative thinking on him as i did. Although some of the stuff we discussed is true..this whole mood swing thing i am in today didn't help, and made it seem like a bigger deal than what it was.

And then, there I was doing the dishes, my youngest one is crying cause she is not feeling the best, trying to be comforted by her father, my other 2 kids running around the house in circles..yelling at each other and fighting..then there is laundry i have to tackle sometime today..and toys all over the living room floor..and i am just thinking.."god take me away from here please"...lol

When i am going through my own issues,..having to deal with all the extras does not make it good. My tolerance level is low, and I sort of go into my own, I suppose kinda selfish mode where I am just thinking of my own problems at the time, and just try and block out everything else around me.
Not to mention, I have to head out to do some groceries soon..nice...perfect timing I would say, and I am sooo wanting to eat the whole house at this point..and i have to face it all at the grocery store. All the wonderful smells of bakery isle, seeing the chocolates,,mmm...and all that good stuff.

But, on the up side, I got through this before, and I will again.
I just wanted you all to have a chance to understand, that it isn't always easy as people portray it to be, and there are going to be days like this one like the one I am having right now right at this moment...but the good news is, it does pass.

I mean while i am writing this, believe me..thinking back 2 months ago...i would have eaten..and eaten..lol..and then when i was done, i would feel so full and satisfied that things just seemed better. Isn't that funny huh? when really all i was doing was having it all stored on my hips..silly me.:-) And the problems and issues I WAS dealing with would still be there afterwards. So it was kinda pointless, now when looking back.

Well I do take full responsibility for it all..and like i said ..i took a vow...to never go back to that state again..despite how tempting that seems every now and again.
well i hope that you are ALL having a better day than myself...stay strong people...and days like this will pass...remember that!!! That's the only way I can get through them!:-)))
talk soon
C.W.H.T.I

Friday January 4th 2008 2 days after making front page of the Ottawa Sun newspaper.:)

Hey there friends. Well i thought it was about time that i write something because its been 4 days...lol..ya a whole 4 days..

actually to be honest, i thought i needed to write something after the release of the newspaper.

As i sit here and write my daughter who is 18 months old, is climbing all over me..wanting up..so bear with me.

I had to take a breather after seeing my pic on the cover of the sun newspaper..that was a shock for even I..they never did mention that part to me!!lol So can you all just imagine when i went to purchase a copy that morning after the gym..i was like..."you've got to be kidding me??"
I was really shocked. There stood a huge pile of Papers that had my face all over them. I started shaking..i just didn't know how to react to that. And i think that shock has stayed with me up until now..smiles

But since i have had a few days to really think about all this, I have been telling myself that its really important to stay on track and not let that get to me. I can now understand how it does get to some people..after having a taste of it..but i have so many other things that i need not forget..such as work..just like most of you, kids that need to fed,changed etc..swimming lessons..lol workouts, meeting with reporters, so much..so i need to remember to stay focused all the time! And to remember why I am doing this first and foremost...my health..and if i make friends along the way that's great too.:)

But I am so touched by the responses and kind comments, and words of encouragement..not to mention some really heart warming ones to say the least. And if anything, this is what is going to get me through this year..is to remember all you guys that are rooting for me. I need to do this not only for myself..but for all of you. So that you can all see that it is possible to change whatever you feel needs to be changed. And i promise you, that by the end of all this, you wont even recognize me as the same person!! And yes I am that confident. I do not even see failure..all i see is defeat.

Tonight i had a cardio session..and boy did I bust to move...I thought about all of you and how you are all counting on me now...so i really put alot into it. wasn't sure if in the end i was going to get my breathing back to normal..hehe..but i did..and i survived. Barely..but i walked out on my two feet. So that's the main thing.:-)

In the coming weeks you will be able to see me talking and working out on the suns website..so please stay tuned for that. I will also still be coming here from time to time as well. So make sure you subscribe to my blogs.

Also don't forget about rogers 22 daytime on January 15th...(11am) with reruns at 3:00p.m, 5:00p.m, and then 11p.m. so hopefully u will be able to catch us on at one of those times.
This time we are taking my inches...oh god??!! But no worries,,,my trainer and I have not done that since just before starting this transformation..so being that its been 2 months soon..I am sure there will be big changes.

I have been feeling fantastic lately..alot of energy..the only bad thing..lately been feeling really hungry...not sure if its all this craziness going on,that is making me THINK I am hungry(because i am a emotional eater)..or, if i really AM hungry..so my trainer advised me to continue eating the same for a week..and if still hungry we will change things a little.

Also today is the 4th..and you know what that means..we are counting down until i have to take my next famous pics which will be taken. January 11th. OH MY GOD..A WEEK FROM TODAY EXACTLY..holy moly!! That will be my (2) month anniversary pics..cant wait to compare those!!

I never in my life liked seeing my pics..but these ones..i cant wait to see every month..i get so excited..because this is all new to me as well. I have never seen my body change so much from month to month. In all areas....its quite amazing how a body reacts to natural foods..and good exercise not to mention lots of water!

Well that's about it for now...my trainer rob posted that we have a group on facebook, and i really hope that you all join us there. because at least once you join the group there...when something comes up whether TV, or the sun..or whatever...you guys all get notifications right away. So please go to that group called Complete Body Transformation Project ...come and join!

Take care and talk soon friends.
THANKS AGAIN!!!
C.W.H.T.I

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HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!! JAN 1st 2008

Well, another year has come and gone. Wow, do the years ever go by so fast don't they?? Now the question is ...what are YOU going to be doing different this year?? Everything we do in life I believe counts for something. If we all looked back at the path we have started, would we all be proud of ourselves? Would we be able to say that we have done everything that we wanted to do, and in the right way, the way we wanted? We are all here for just such a short period of time, God only knows how long, really it could be years, days or even perhaps minutes...and it is up to us what we do with that time!

Many of these New Year days, like today, have came and gone in my life..and in the past I would start a New Years resolution, only to get weak and let it go after a short period of time. BUT, this one is going to be different!! I am now, NOT going to personally allow the rest of my years (or days or even minutes) be controlled by food like in the past. A decision, I now stand firm on, and I am making a promise to myself, to, open myself up, to become a stronger individual, both emotionally and physically this year!! And to try new things, that perhaps, I was once afraid of trying. To enjoy life, and my friends, and family and those who I feel close to, alot more in the future, and appreciate the time I have with them.

Also, I want to SURPASS any expectations I might have right now of what "I believe" I can do...and to go beyond the"trying my best possible" modo. To challenge my body and mind, on a whole different new level! To push my body to the furthest that I can possibly push it!

Life can get so boring at times, its so nice to challenge ourselves with something different! It feels great, take if from someone who NEVER really challenged herself before! We ARE alot stronger, I believe, as humans than we give ourselves credit for. The choice is always given to us, put into our hands, for us to decide what route we will take next, therefore, we have the ability to change whatever we want to, that we feel is important to ourselves.

If I go back to before I started this project, you would have never caught me saying these words to anyone..you may have caught me eating the way I did in the past, not exercising, and doing whatever..and continuing on trying to convince myself that I was fine, everything was fine, and that I was doing great! But now that I have tasted the other side of things..I now realize that I was not fine. It was just an image in my mind that I got so used to seeing, that, later as time passed, I never knew any different. This was the norm for me. Sometimes it takes someone as positive as my trainer to come into your life, to open your eyes and your mind, to allow yourself to see things from a whole different point of view.

I really don't want to sound like a motivating speaker, because God knows that I do not consider myself perfect by any means, and that I have still a long journey ahead of me, that I am sure will be full of ups and downs...but at least my mind is in the right mindset..and its about keeping it there. Holding on to it tight, so that it doesn't crumble up in my hand, like a cookie and then get tossed away. I have to stay focused, on what I want, and what I deserve for myself. Putting myself first, instead of always being last. Because, I am just as important on this earth as any other.

So, on that note...once again Happy New Year to everyone reading this blog, and I hope that you to, can reach inside yourself to make a difference in your life today, whether be your physical self, or something completely different.
You have it in you to change, you just have to have patience, take it day by day, and know what you are doing is for the best, and that it will make YOU a stronger person. Even though what might start off being seen as small positive steps to begin with, they will end up becoming the base of the reality of the dream you might have chosen. Just strive for the best, to do your best and in the end..it will all work out.

**Sometimes, I too, get ahead of myself, and my trainer always reminds me...step by step and do what I say...:-) So what he means is.. HIS pace, and HE will tell ME when its time for a change! Whether that be in my exercise routine or diet. So patience is something I TOO have to still get used to! Even though it seems like it takes forever, really if you concentrate on what you are doing, rather than the time its taking..before you know it...your there!!:-)

talk soon
C.W.H.T.I
xo