Moonday March 24th 2008, An apple a day, keeps the doctor away!!

As I sit here and chow down on a nice fresh apple that was picked from a tree somewhere hot..lol...I am thinking to myself what a weekend!

Alot went on this weekend, as far as shooting footage for some videos for the Ottawa Sun website(which a couple of them should be up sometime today), not to mention it was Easter long weekend, so I am just so happy that I have this Monday off to just enjoy a little down time.

Before going to the gym this morning for my cardio, I jumped on that scale of mine and when looking at the numbers this morning (205lbs) I should have been really upset, but I am not.

The last diet I was on just wasnt doing it for me! Like I mentioned in other posts, I am sure, actually CERTAIN, I have been going down in numbers as far as inches..but that diet was just making me fluctuate on the scale one too many times, which, ended up really fraustrating me! My trainer says the reason for this is that the diet I was on consisted of many more dense type of foods, therefore my body was just taking longer to digest them all. Not really a bad thing, but it made the readings on the actual scale go up and down many times. But it's all good, we have now changed that.

I have now just started my new diet yesturday(Sunday) which is more like the first diet I was doing as far as where the foods are concerned. I am more than confident that those numbers are soon going to start dropping once again, and this time probably more consistently. So nothing to really be upset over, after all this is a lifetime change I am doing! So what if we are playing around a little bit..We are learning as we go along all about this great body of mine and what it wants and needs to work at its full potential! Also, even though I dont remember the inches lost off hand from yesturdays assesment on camera..I do know they were pretty crazy!!

So I have alot to be proud of. This working my butt off at the gym has really paid off for me, along with the new eating healthier lifestyle that I have grown to love.

Last night there were some pictures taken of me, and I just couldnt get over how my face has changed so much! Looking so different day after day. I mean, we are all firmiliar with that double chin, the one most overweight people are all ashamed of in pics, that same chin that we all try so hard just to get the right angle in pictures to be able to hide it, well thats not there anymore, so I don't have to worry about that part.

But, my face is just starting to look so much smaller..haha
And I laugh because I am not sure if I really liked the pics yesturday. I was really studying them for while, and at one point was thinking to myself..do I look sick? I dont know lol...please remember this is ALL new to me. There have been so many changes concerning my body since tackling this project that it sometimes scares me. It is like winning the lottery all of a sudden, (well at least for me...it seems that way, because I am winning back my freedom which is even more imporant then a lottery).

But, imagine if you were really heavy all your life, and in just a little over 4 months dropping like 70 lbs along with tons of inches....you start feeling things you never used to feel, noticing and seeing certain bones you never used to know were even there, and your face slimming right down...its pretty crazy stuff because its been so rapid! But at the same time, how amazing is that?

It is like I am starting to witness first hand whats been hiding underneath all of this extra skin that I carried for so long. It is like a new person that is starting to come out. And this is not only physical things I notice..but just me as a person in general. And sometimes it does seem a little overwhelming.

I mean all my life I just got way too comfortable with the fact that I was overweight, and always in my mind thought "this is what I am, and this is what I will always be". As time passed, I just was taught to accept it!

(It was so much easier to just accept my weight issue, instead of actually doing something about it. When I did get up the courage to try and change, I was faced with the reality that I had alot of work ahead of me, which in turn would just end up discouraging me, and I would end up failing)

And I lived that for so long, most of my life. So all these changes that I am going through during this, even shock even me most times, not only the other people that are watching it:)

Anyways I just got told that one video is now up on the Ottawa SUN website, so I need to go and see how we did. Just remember that there was alot taken this weekend so, there will be a few videos put up of myself and trainer..so keep checking back! But so far ...there is one.


Direct Link to part 1 of the video - Whole Food Nutrition for Weight Loss

Have a great week! keep smiling, and keep loving life.... because it really is a gift!
C.W.H.T.I