I couldn't resist, so I just looked at them wondering, "what it would be like to rip one of those suckers open"!!

Hey everyone. Happy Valentine's Day!!!

I was wanting to write something this morning, but sometimes my mornings seem to fly by and leave me with absolutely no time.

This morning however i made it to the gym, and really had a longer cardio workout(45minutes). I decided to do that since i actually have been bad lately and missed a few days.

I missed last friday(which was a weight training day), and of course i dont do workouts on the weekends, and then missed monday(another weight training day) and tuesday(a cardio day)....of course all for legitimate reasons but nontheless i missed. But you know, i really felt it today. Its amazing by just missing those couple of days, your body starts to go backwards again.So quickly.
I mean it was hard even for me to do 180 strides per minute on the eliptical (that is what i usually do or MORE) and this morning could only do 160 if that, sometimes would even drop to 150.. So i was alot slower this morning.That is a BIG difference. The workout felt like forever and extra hard. It was just hard pushing through it. it was almost like i was fighting with myself..oh I CAN'T do this today..oh YES you can..oh NOOO really I cant...Oh you DAMN WELL WILL..lol
man...

and then my new weight training workout routine that my trainer prepared for me i tried to go through yesturday(Wednesday)..well...lets just say i had a really hard time with it. It totally through me off, exercises felt difficult..(he makes them look so easy mind you) I cursed alot, it put me in a BAD mood, and went to work only having half done it, and felt really jipped..lol but that together with missing a few days..you dont feel too good!

So, we are going back to meet once again at the gym, to go through it all! Man that sucks!! It's really hard getting a new routine, I tell ya. Because you get so confident with the old one, your doing so well, feeling so strong, feeling as though nothing can tear you down, like you are a warrior...lol and then my trainer comes along..and its as if he says probably laughing in his head...ya...you think your doing good..here is your new workout..and it KILLS ME.! lol It takes away all that confidence I had, and I am back to square one! Reminding myself I have a long way to go!

He is a tough one! But even though he might be a tough one, i know, he knows his stuff, he inspires me, and i want to be tough like him too one day. So, I just work through it!:-)) He is helping me build myself to what I want to be,both emotionally and physically, he is basically taking me through this journey. But, I really do admire him cause he also has a heart of gold, not only for me, but for anyone who may need his help. Like he said before.."this is my passion"

But I am sure, as i have told him, one day.....not too far from now... i will be body slamming him..if he is not careful...lol

So, the last few workouts this week have not been too good. One of those weeks I suppose. I hope next week gets better. But you know missing those days, although i felt guilty..sad to say that i got used to the "oh i cant go today" words. and then when you have to actually go, it makes it that much more difficult.

So my tip of the day, ...DON'T DO THAT PEOPLE!!. just go..even if you can only squeeze in 30 minutes, even 15 minutes..better than nothing..keep the good habit going for yourself, and keep your body used to moving..believe me you are doing yourself a favour by doing so.

Well, once again, another excuse to eat chocolates today, but no chocolates for me though:-(
god as you all know i love chocolates...i dont think i could ever not like them. Then again I love everything really..lol
:-)
Went shopping for my little girls valentine cards at the store last night after work, and i tell ya all those really nicely wrapped chocolates, they make them look so attractive to buy, nevemind that its valentines day...man, i couldn't resist, so I just looked at them wondering, what it would be like to rip one of those suckers right open and feel it melt in my mouth. Would only take perhaps half a second...yummy. Then i snapped out of it!

I am literally counting down the days till i am at my half way mark. Not much more time left. So, once i lose another 20lbs its party time for me kids..and party time means also something really important...EATING TIME..lol

Oh i have everything set in my mind..from breakfast, to lunch. to snacks..and most importantly chinese buffet dinner!! lol
I plan on eating a little bit of everything that day...because i know that is the ONLY day that i will be allowed to do so until the end.

I hope that you all come out that night to meet and greet with me and rob, when we are not stuffing our faces of course.lol
We will let you know of when and where...we hope all our fans and supporters from my blog, from the Ottawa Sun newspaper readers, viewers from Rogers 22, friends and family will come on out for that one night, so we can share it together. EVERYONE WILL BE WELCOMED!

Its been really tough you know not seeing my friends much. And not being able to do the dinner thing, so i hope that they will all come out that night. I want to hug and kiss every one of them, I know they all understand that I am doing something really big right now, and even though i want to go out,,,its been tough juggling all of it at once you know. Work,kids,family,workouts,diet..so this is the ONE night I am looking forward to just being me, being normal like all of you! I think at that point I will surely deserve it. I just better watch cause I might end up getting carried away and end up in the bathroom ..lol

That will be something interesting to report on how i am feeling after that night...eating all those "bad foods" and drinking perhaps some shall i say....booze????
I have only had water and tea for the last 3 months..I better be real careful actually.lol
But I will make sure to make a blog entry the next morning.lol...or 2 mornings after if i am in recovery.lol

Anyways, thanks for reading,
C.W.H.T.I