A NIGHT TO REMEMBER!!

So here I am just finished supper, got the kids in bed.. Tonight I was at the gym, doing our video taping for the suns newspaper website...

I tell you..it was quite the experience ...I never laughed so hard in my life! And it was a nice change given the fact I have been more on the serious side since starting this body transformation project. After all, I have to be serious, to stay focused..but tonight..the old me came out. I guess that side of me is always there actually...but it just felt sooo great to let loose for a change, not to mention I had a ball practising on my drama skills, that were and STILL are pretty crappy:-) No wonder I failed drama in high school!
hehe..Then again, maybe that was cause I skipped all the time...hm..not sure...anyways. I don't think it's in the cards for me to become an actress after tonight..hehe...its actually HARD being serious in front of a camera when you are a person like myself:)


People who know me..know that most of the time you will catch me smiling...or laughing..one of the two...i love to laugh...its just me..and its just my personality, so trying to put me in front of a camera and being serious at that, is like..good luck..but we finally did it after so many takes:)

But all in all it was an incredible experience to go through, having me trainer right by my side, however it was a little difficult sometimes, (but in a good way)trying to get things right...us having to re due it over and over cause I would just laugh... just hearing my trainer talking and being serious into the camera about the exercise I was doing, THAT would even make me laugh. So then we BOTH would end up laughing! Good going for me! Every little thing...it was crazy!

I suppose part of that laughing is also due to the fact, that this is STILL somewhat shocking and overwhelming for me. The thought,that,...people might actually be interested in my life, and what I chose to embark on this year. It was an idea I just came up with one morning never thinking it would reach so many people to this extent, nor, so many hearts. But its been fantastic! I really feel like this time around, that with this idea I had, I will not only be helping myself, but I can REALLY reach out and help so many others! And that's the BEST feeling of all! To be a role model I suppose for all those others that may feel lost, just like I first did! I know I have been there!

BUT, I am a person that loves challenges...and loves change...before all this, i was just working as a housekeeper(still am), you know, typical mother of 3 kids, dealt with appointments, and made sure the laundry was kept up, dinner was ready, toys were tidied, dishes were done, basically always did everything for everyone, but my own happiness was left on the back burner..I guess, I started to kind of get bored I suppose with the same routines day in day out! Even though I still do them all...ha. I just added something extra but this is extra is making ME for once feel great!

Don't get me wrong,,,i am SO blessed...with the life that was given to me! I may not have alot of money or a new car, or really expensive clothes, and many other things people wish for, but I do have something, and that is my family..my friends..and myself! And that is more than money can buy! I just NEEDED something different to challenge MY own body and mind..and now, when looking at what I've taken on, I think I have picked the perfect thing for myself...:-)there is nothing right now that i can see myself doing that would be more challenging at this point anyways.
Although being the person I am, it wouldn't surprise me if I think of something else once this project is finished!

It's been a real roller coaster ride..and I am so happy that I get to share it with all with you!! I wish I could reach out to all of you one by one personally ..all those reading my blog..and those who are trying to change like myself, but at least we have this ...to be able share these laughs together, and the stories,..good, bad, happy, or sad. But laughing feels sooo good!Even when you are working your butt off literally!

Anyways, but ..reality is...now that tonight is over..tomorrow it will be back at the gym again in the morning..nothing new..some things don't change.:-) Ready to tackle on another kick butt workout that at the moment when doing feels like its just killing me but yet leaves me feeling unbelievably powerful afterwards! And it always makes me feel like i can conquer anything.

But i just wanted you all to know about my night tonight! And I think everyone should try and do something that is totally not the norm which you are so used to doing...because its just such a thrill to go through a journey like the one i am going through now, because this is so abnormal for me, and to think that i wouldn't have been able to experience all this, if i didn't admit, and look at my problem, face it, and most importantly be open about it. I was so scared in the beginning..afraid of being laughed at..afraid of what if people know me?..what are they going to think?..so many things made me a little nervous about actually coming out..but once i did...it felt fantastic..like a breath of the freshest air! It was something that I have never experienced feeling before!

So you can all catch me on the suns website early next week..i guess under videos..not sure..but check it out I will be there somewhere...the link is on the right hand side on this blog page...

Well..this is it...I hope you ALL realize that tommorow...is....MY 2 MONTH ANNIVERSARY PICSSSSSSS!!!! yesssssss!!!..so when i get up..everyone knows...picture time for me...in the same shorts..and shirt..but...I CANT WAIT!! hehe

So I will try and post them tomorrow morning for us all.
TALK SOOOOOONNNNNNN!
C.W.H.T.I
xo