Monday January 21st, 2008....AND 40LBS LESS ...yeeeeeaaaaaah! In just 10weeks and one day!

Hi everyone. Just a quick blog before getting my "you know what" to the gym. Today I am feeling a little bit edgy. Don't really want to go to the gym this morning, but i know i have to. I guess once being home and having time away from the gym on the weekends..I find Mondays always fun to go back(not). But once i get there I know i will be OK.

So my weight today showed 232lbs so i have dropped another 3lbs since last Monday..pretty good given the fact that I have now been on this transformation for over 2 months and the weight dropping is pretty steady.

I am predicting that by March sometime I should finally see the 100's./god that is going to feel great...i haven't seen that number in so many years, that honestly I cant even really remember when.Once I get to 199lbs...its party time folks..extra veggies for me:)

I suppose when i was about 17ish i went down to about 170-180lbs but that was the lowest. And any diets i did after that..the absolute lowest was 205..and to think I am almost there.

SO, I tell you its going to be interesting. Not sure how i will be at a normal weight. I cant even look that far ahead. I guess being overweight for so long will probably just no matter what be part of my life(emotionally). I will always still sometimes see myself as that same person.

But its great that I have now passed the points of other diets that I have done in the last few years...and once i get to that 205lbs mark..which is not that far away...i will know OK...got through that..next 180lbs....its almost as if i have marks that I am passing of my own past life. And you tend to remember a time when you were at a certain weight...and what was happening in your life.
I was 180lbs when i started dating my first boyfriend, then i was 225lbs when i was in my last year of high school..so i went up..then when my brother got married 10 years ago..i was able to get down to 205lbs by working out myself and watching what i ate..then i don't know what happened...back up up up the scale again and reached 272lbs where I started this whole thing.
But I am never going to go back up again..all this hard work..and dedication, and not to mention all the wonderful things i am learning from my trainer that he is teaching me. Later on I will now know what I should or shouldn't do. And I will never let myself go like I did in the past.
I have my kids now, that's done with..there is no reason to really gain weight...at least not to a high degree..i am sure i will fluctuate from time to time..around 10lbs and I am OK with that..but I think I will be more in control of what I put into my body this time around. And I will be the first to admit that I plan on having probably the "once a week" pig out..but during the week..I will make sure to just make the most healthiest choices ever. That's all.. I mean i am only normal( not to mention Italian!!)..i still need that once a week..to go eat whatever!! LOL

Well that's about it...this blog has actually got longer than I was planning ..maybe just jabbering trying to waste time to not get to that gym..so I better go right now!
But I just realized all together I have now lost 40lbs.....!!!! In just over 2 months..isn't that awesome...!! Wow..cant believe it! I am so proud of myself...showing all of you that we can do this...see...just with patience..and hard work and dedication anything can be done!! We do have a choice people...
OK now i really have to go!!!!


Anyways talk soon...keep strong people with me..shoot out some good Karma towards me here, and any energy to give me strength..god knows i will need it this morning pumping those weights!!
gotta go..
C.W.H.T.I