HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!! JAN 1st 2008

Well, another year has come and gone. Wow, do the years ever go by so fast don't they?? Now the question is ...what are YOU going to be doing different this year?? Everything we do in life I believe counts for something. If we all looked back at the path we have started, would we all be proud of ourselves? Would we be able to say that we have done everything that we wanted to do, and in the right way, the way we wanted? We are all here for just such a short period of time, God only knows how long, really it could be years, days or even perhaps minutes...and it is up to us what we do with that time!

Many of these New Year days, like today, have came and gone in my life..and in the past I would start a New Years resolution, only to get weak and let it go after a short period of time. BUT, this one is going to be different!! I am now, NOT going to personally allow the rest of my years (or days or even minutes) be controlled by food like in the past. A decision, I now stand firm on, and I am making a promise to myself, to, open myself up, to become a stronger individual, both emotionally and physically this year!! And to try new things, that perhaps, I was once afraid of trying. To enjoy life, and my friends, and family and those who I feel close to, alot more in the future, and appreciate the time I have with them.

Also, I want to SURPASS any expectations I might have right now of what "I believe" I can do...and to go beyond the"trying my best possible" modo. To challenge my body and mind, on a whole different new level! To push my body to the furthest that I can possibly push it!

Life can get so boring at times, its so nice to challenge ourselves with something different! It feels great, take if from someone who NEVER really challenged herself before! We ARE alot stronger, I believe, as humans than we give ourselves credit for. The choice is always given to us, put into our hands, for us to decide what route we will take next, therefore, we have the ability to change whatever we want to, that we feel is important to ourselves.

If I go back to before I started this project, you would have never caught me saying these words to anyone..you may have caught me eating the way I did in the past, not exercising, and doing whatever..and continuing on trying to convince myself that I was fine, everything was fine, and that I was doing great! But now that I have tasted the other side of things..I now realize that I was not fine. It was just an image in my mind that I got so used to seeing, that, later as time passed, I never knew any different. This was the norm for me. Sometimes it takes someone as positive as my trainer to come into your life, to open your eyes and your mind, to allow yourself to see things from a whole different point of view.

I really don't want to sound like a motivating speaker, because God knows that I do not consider myself perfect by any means, and that I have still a long journey ahead of me, that I am sure will be full of ups and downs...but at least my mind is in the right mindset..and its about keeping it there. Holding on to it tight, so that it doesn't crumble up in my hand, like a cookie and then get tossed away. I have to stay focused, on what I want, and what I deserve for myself. Putting myself first, instead of always being last. Because, I am just as important on this earth as any other.

So, on that note...once again Happy New Year to everyone reading this blog, and I hope that you to, can reach inside yourself to make a difference in your life today, whether be your physical self, or something completely different.
You have it in you to change, you just have to have patience, take it day by day, and know what you are doing is for the best, and that it will make YOU a stronger person. Even though what might start off being seen as small positive steps to begin with, they will end up becoming the base of the reality of the dream you might have chosen. Just strive for the best, to do your best and in the end..it will all work out.

**Sometimes, I too, get ahead of myself, and my trainer always reminds me...step by step and do what I say...:-) So what he means is.. HIS pace, and HE will tell ME when its time for a change! Whether that be in my exercise routine or diet. So patience is something I TOO have to still get used to! Even though it seems like it takes forever, really if you concentrate on what you are doing, rather than the time its taking..before you know it...your there!!:-)

talk soon
C.W.H.T.I
xo