Wednesday Nov, 28th 2007

Hello. Hope everyone is doing well..at least better than me. The last few days have been really tough because I am fighting off a really bad cold. damn I hate colds, however i have still got myself going to the gym like usual. surprisingly. don't even know how I have done it, but I am scared not to go now because then it might start a bad habit of not going. So because I am on a roll now, I feel like i have to get there.

This morning was tough cause it was another early one...but instead of getting up at 6:00 am and getting out the door..it was more like 6:30 am..and for me this is bad...because mornings every minute counts. So much to do, so little time, type of thing. I mean i have to get my workout in, go back home and get my daughter to school(SK)and then there are the other 2 children i have to feed, dress etc...and then of course there is myself taking my shower before work and getting my meals ready to take, beds to be made..you know..not to mention blogging;)
man..time flies..and it almost never seems like I have enough of it.

Anyways, its better this way...cause right now my problem is weekends and too much time home ...its a killer to go through. I just find especially weekends I get so like...i want to eat more..but i cant...then my nerves start..at least with work and having a busier week it takes my mind off of it for a while..so the days seems quicker to pass..and before you know it another 5 days go by. And not to mention I have a job where I am always busy..so that too helps.

Well, other than that things are well. I am staying away from the scale until next Monday, because it doesn't do me any good to weigh myself everyday, (as far as my trainer is concerned he says not to even weigh myself for at least a month..ya right! too hard for moi to do)but if i don't lose a pound...i get MAD..lol. I think of all that hard work i did the day before, and not a pound..lol. funny eh?
its crazy...so anyways I will let you know Monday where i am at.

But you know ..its interesting next time someone tells you like myself that they have lost 11 or even 10 pounds..i know it doesn't sound like much..but last night walking around the fruit and vegetable store...i looked at that bag of potatoes that were like 10 pounds..and i picked it up for fun.something we all so often do but never pay attention to..and you know what...that thing is heavy! So whether it is water that i lost or whatever...for that scale to be 11 pounds less...hey...thats alot of weight, that is alot less on my body already that it used to carry...so always keep that in mind...its crazy when you look at it that way.

I mean we don't realize how much we are actually carrying because our bodies get used to the extra weight i suppose..and it just feels normal at the time, we don't really know any different...but imagine carrying that 10 pounds and times that by lets say roughly 14 times...wow that's heavy man. I don't even know how i haven't had a heart attack yet..thank god of course!

Well, anyways my friends, I will be back on Monday and will let you know where i am at weight wise, and then i believe its one week after that i will be posting my one month after start pics...so excited! i mean I cannot wait to compare..! And,then soon after that, I am also going to be getting together with my trainer and we will be taking all those great measurments that we also did in the beginning to compare..and that too i will post as well...so we can see together in inches how much i have lost in different parts.
God forbid imagine they don't change..after all this hard work i have been putting into this whole transition thing..i think i would just freak out.lol! I think that would be my worst nightmare come true!

Speaking of nightmares one quick note..i keep having one that I am always eating like bad stuff..and saying "oh my trainer wont know"..so there i am stuffing my face..isnt that funny? I wonder why I am dreaming that...perhaps just the thought of failing is always in the back of my head. I dont know.

anyways talk to everyone later.
C.W.H.T.I